I posted this in 2019.  At that time, I was in a dark place.  But if you had asked me then, I would not have thought that things were so bad. Truth is, like many, I thought that my way of life was good to go- drinking hard (real hard), chasing women, angry, cussing like a fool, pride, ego, and the list goes on.  

Sadly, many of us fall into this category because we blend in with everyone else.  This is easy to do and takes little to no boldness to walk a path that everyone else does.  Friends, if you conform to this pattern and live like the rest, then you are missing it. 

I believed that "I" could do all things and better my situation on all fronts.  "I" had the strength and the will to do it.  With this mentality, my hole got deeper.  I was at the bar every day and night, sadly.  Neglecting kids, work, and just life in general.

What I did not know was that the Lord was allowing me to get to a point where the only place I could look was to Him.  Inevitably, that is what happened.  

The problem here was that I thought that "I" could do it, and the truth is, "I" couldn't.  I needed Him, and it got to that point where I had to ask for His strength, His guidance, His mercy, and His direction for me because I was spinning out of control.  

So in 2019, I did not lie when I posted this, saying I would only get stronger.  As things would have it, it was not I who did it; it was Christ who strengthened me.  

What a ride, and I am here for more!